It’s semantics. Maybe my chubbness can’t understand the extreme level of fidelity it takes to shred. (<–and i don’t think i’m even using that term correctly).
But the desserts, pastries and pastas are not a deviation. I’m not cheating on anything! It’s what I eat. And I’ve gone without them for a while. But I’ve not yet arrived at the permanent dismissal of those foods.
I’ll take full responsibility that I also haven’t reached my ideal weight, muscle definition and endurance level. So that should tell you more about my lack of [fill in what I need more of] and that I’m a real live work in progress.
The word “cheat” also doesn’t sit well with me. But we throw it around casually with the alleged understanding that we were oh-so-faithful to the healthy menu to begin with. It’s a tongue-in-cheek expression but it’s glorifying unfaithfulness in relationships that doesn’t align with wellness.
And, not for nothin’, but I wasn’t that healthy and definitely not that committed to excluding gourmet frozen popcorn and cinnamon melts to begin with.
Okay, so the main idea is that I (and you may join me) could do a better job about managing and sustaining a clean diet. But there doesn’t need to be a cheat meal. Either I eat clean or I don’t. And when I don’t, it’s not because I need a way out of this imaginary commitment. It’s because I need more training and practice on what I should be doing to bring me closer to my goals.
Clarity is key if I’m really going to move forward. It’s not a cheat meal because that’s how I was eating the entire time. What I’m really working on is finding foods that will satisfy those cravings and ultimately “break up” with the processed sugars, carbs, caffeine altogether.
Until then, getting more sleep, getting more active will impact and change my menu. And I won’t be cheating! I’ll be changing! 🙂
I would love to say that I finally reached my goal in record time. But I am back at the weight that I started. So this is real life?
I’d rather have the “before” and “after” picture, side-by-side, and enjoy the drastic difference in appearance, and cut out the grit and work in between. Instead, I have another list of “what didn’t work.”
What did I learn?
Getting in shape, making time for fitness and changing lifestyle habit gets harder as I get older.
I can start today – small changes, small decisions.
Failure is fuel. The only thing that didn’t work was….me! The plan to get fit was great. The food available was great. A little too great, if you know what I mean. My fitness instructors were great. My workout clothes were great. Then essentially, it’s “user error.” But that’s great, too!
I read about Mira Rai on BBC online – a world-class runner who competes in extreme races. She didn’t train with fancy equipment. She didn’t have a coach. She just had the drive.
In this journey, I discovered I have more self-imposed detours than I have external roadblocks to blame.
So, what’s the plan? Do what I can. Then, do more.
Here is a foto from September! 🙂 My scheduled workout is really just once a week: Zumba + Sculpt at a fitness studio. It includes 30 minutes of cardio/dance, immediately followed by 25 minutes of circuit training with weights. I’m using 3lbs as light weights and 5lbs as my medium weight. I have carpal tunnel so when I feel the numbness, I stay with the 3lbs or use no weights during circuit. I detest mountain climbers but I have grown to tolerate them. My favorite exercise: Bent over reverse fly.
My current mantra: It’s gonna be great!
Stay tuned for how my past failures will fuel the drive to discover new things in this fitness journey.
Be sure to share! What failure have you experienced? How did you turn it around?