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Done Apologizing. New Year Ahead.

Inflammation from radiation has died down. My doctor moved me out so that I only have to see him every six months, instead of every three months. I lost 13 lbs in the last year, which means I’m halfway to my goal on this Road to 124.

This journey has been a fight and an educational experience. I learned more about how much God cares about my health, not just surviving, but to reach a potential that is only possible through Christ. {See “Where God Fits Into My Fitness”}

I used to feel bad because my posts didn’t declare losing the grand 20 lbs in six months. I also don’t eat entirely healthy and I do indulge in sweets and coffee. But I’m done apologizing. {See “How My Wimpy Workout Makes Me Feel Like Superwoman”}

I learned what fitness coaches try to get their clients to understand. That losing fat and getting fit is a lifestyle change. I’m proud of myself for finally grasping that fitness 101 concept. Most of all, I’m so blessed that the Lord has patiently walked through my frustrations this year.

I also learned that making these changes was emotional. I had to face things about myself that I didn’t like, like the truth about my lack of impulse control and how I may have been “holding on” to the excess weight as  a way to protect myself or as a way of resisting letting go of certain memories. I had to face that it wasn’t about workouts and lean protein meals. This had issues that went far deeper and I casually accepted them as things that would never change. With the Lord’s guidance, He showed me that it’s simply not true.

I am thankful to you, that you’ve gone on this journey with me. I still have a few more pounds to go and I’m excited to challenge myself in new ways in 2015. I’m also looking forward to what God has for me in the next stage of life, as I enjoy my third year from recovery and my second year of focused fitness and lifestyle change.

I pray that you, too, find newness and promise in the coming year and that you are blessed with discoveries in your own health and get closer to whom God made you to be.

“Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.” Matthew 5:16 (KJV)


133! Almost there!

The Road to 124 (lbs) has been bumpy and comical. I developed a deeper appreciation for simple, healthy eating, and at the same time, developed a discipline for minding my budget. It’s true when coaches say that working on one discipline will reinforce other disciplines.

But what we can’t measure is the spiritual development of this journey. I can only write about things I’ve eaten, tried, experienced. The real change is what happened to my character and how I discovered who I am and most importantly, how God is really in charge of everything in my life. He cares enough about me to care about my health, reaching my ideal weight range and relieving me of anxieties of weigh-in deadlines, picture-perfect body images and the ongoing inability to keep up.

Romans 12:1-2 reads, “I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service.And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.”

Taking on the challenge of shedding this weight wasn’t sacrifice, although it felt painful to pass up cinnamon rolls and a midnight cheeseburger. 🙂 When I started learning that God wants the best for me, that a gradual and permanent loss of excess weight was a path to having me look and feel the way He lovingly intended, then it framed this fat loss experience in a way that had meaning and purpose (and gentleness!), beyond just fitting into a smaller dress size.

I have a few more pounds to lose. Now, I’m more confident that it can get done. I also know that I will go through life seasons where I won’t be able to be a powerhouse exercise freak but that’s okay. I discovered a fitness/ movement baseline so that I know where to start.

I’m thankful that you have also spent time with me on this journey and I’m excited for your own discoveries about your fitness and health. You might be in the early stages of recovery. Or you might be at the powerhouse level. I pray that you can take a moment to see how far you’ve come and enjoy those in-between moments of “almost there.”