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Tahitian dancing - before I was a Mommy
Tahitian dancing – before I was a Mommy

Yes, you read it right! Thanks to a hula sister who invited me to take a class with her instructor, I conquered TWO hip-switchin’ hours of Tahitian dance training. It felt good to be back on the floor!  I’m grateful my leg didn’t go numb and become a useless stump (I have mild sciatica).

Dance victories: 

  • Danced alongside my daughter again, who didn’t quit or whine. She pushed right through it and enjoyed the music & laughter.
  • Danced beside ohana for the first time in over ten years
  • Barefoot, dancing, energized past 8pm
  • Embraced the way I looked in the studio mirror – all I saw was a woman who was happy and trying her best.

I have tightness in my joints and particularly, my hips. This is a common and lasting side effect from chemo/radiation. Radiation was in the pelvic region so the occasional joint and hip creaking is not uncommon. Neurologists have told me to stay active and that the tightness will eventually go away. My dr also recommended yoga to combat the tightness and to give myself a workout without pounding the dance floor with such fervor.

Notice that the dr’s say “eventually,” and they don’t give a timeline. The majority of data available on lasting effects of chemo/rad is with an older age group (60 – 70s). We are still in the stages of collecting data about the effects on a younger population (under 50yrs old).

In some ways, I might be a pioneer for that. And you are, too, if you’re recovering from something similar. I came across some people who would bark diet and exercise tips to me, as if it were a matter of self-discipline. But it’s not that easy.

We’re dealing with a re-acquaintance process of getting to know our bodies all over again. I know I’m never going to be the same and I welcome that! It’s really about creating your own story of healing and renewal. This time, for me,  it was through dance.

I encourage you to relish in things that you can do now that you couldn’t do before. You need to see how far you’ve come in your healing. I may not be as fit, fast or flexible as I was ten years ago, but I’m better than I was a year ago! 

 

Foto – 71 miles worth it

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It was my cousin’s 14th birthday. That side of the family lives 71 miles from my home. With the health issues of the past couple of years, I had not been able to visit them – until last Saturday. The sitting position of driving was typically uncomfortable for me: the weight and pressure on my hips, the muscle strength it takes to sit up, the energy and alertness I need to drive. We might take those things for granted when we’re healthy. Even with the long drive ahead of me, my spirit told me, “If I’m healthy enough to go, then go.”

This foto is a picture of energy. I know what it took to get there and the giggles and lightness that you can see in the picture makes it worth it. I should add that both of these young men are black belts in martial arts! Visiting them was fun.

What are the little things you overlooked today? What have you taken for granted, because you can? Is there someone you need to visit and you haven’t done it? Are you healthy enough to go? Then, go.

“For I long to see you, that I may impart unto you some spiritual gift, to the end ye may be established” Romans 1:11